I'm so Yucky!!!

I decided I should probably get back on track and update my blog.....the natives are getting restless!!  Ha ha, not really, but people are starting to send flowers and sht!!!  I'm still here, alive and kicking. Yep, I've been in a bit of a slacker lately, but really, I can hardly stand myself.  Probably don't have much to say that would be printable... pissy x 10.  Tuesday the Dr. told me how lucky I am....ya know,.... bite me!!

I had my 3rd chemo.  It was the regular party, lots of good friends and family.  We went to lunch after...just no margaritas this time.  Every now and then I learn my lesson.  This time I decided to do something different.  Dr. Rubin had me come in for vitamin C IVs.  Evidently vitamin C works way better than tequila....Who knew?  I really didn't even get sick, of course then I did way to much and am exhausted, but it was way worth it!  Alex, my nephew, was in town to play baseball in a Junior Showcase at the Peoria Sports Complex.   I made 4 out of his 5 games.... the 1 game we won't talk about, because I was really upset I didn't make it...long, not very nice story! It was great to see Alex, the program said he's 6 ft....can you believe that... When did he grow up?? I didn't think he would understand if I still wanted to call him "punkin head" from the stands! I was so grateful I could go to the games, and he even took time to go to lunch with me everyday.  Saturday, Andi, Athanasia, and Anna all came to the game, we even went to the Greek Festival at "Yiayia's" church for lunch.  So that was my week.... get up, go to the game and lunch, come home, go to bed...repeat.  It was awesome!!
So, like I said, Tuesday, I went back to the Dr.  It was great news.  The "lump" feels fleshy, which is a good thing.  It means the chemo is working!  Yeah!  The plan is...Monday, Nov. 1st, chemo.  Week of the 8th, MRI.  If everything goes as planned I should have my new "girls" by Christmas!   There are lots of little things I would like to talk about at some other time.  At this point I would just like to say that everyone needs to take charge and be an active participant in their own health care.
Today I'm back on antibiotics with a fever.  If everyone can send out a little prayer so I don't miss chemo on Monday, I would really appreciate it....I've seen what you all can do!! Thanks.

Oh.... and just a little FYI about the title....It's for Anna.  When she was little and had a little trouble with her L's , her sisters and I were driving out to my house and Anna announced..."We're sssoooo YUCKY!!!"  Yep, she meant Lucky, but what I wouldn't give for her to ask me to sit in my yap cuz she just yuvs me! But, we're all growing up, Anna's graduated from speech, and yes Dr. Meng.....I am lucky!

Extreme, oh, and opposite Emotions

OMG I have to get out of bed!!! I've fallen right into my comfy self pity poof of a bed.  I really don't want to talk to anybody or do anything....Yep, I just want to lay here...oh, and feel guilty about laying here, but not guilty enough to actually get up...What's up with that????  I keep thinking I need to get up and move...get some exercise...but, then I really don't feel good enough to  get up, then I see my bald head in a shadow or a mirror and think wtf.  What happened? ....

Monday I got my second chemo treatment. Only two more until the surgery.  I can't wait to be done....It feels like the world keeps on going and I'm kinda stuck right where I'm at until I'm done.   Okay, Okay...enough... Monday was fun.  We had a regular chemo party!  I had my "posse" with me.  I was done in two and a half hours....Piece of cake!!

From there we went to the mall in search of wigs.  What a trip...Mall hair x 10!!  I'm still not sure about the lady working in the wig store... I mean really, if your selling the whole idea of people not being able to tell the difference, you should probably exemplify that particular quality!  It kind of reminded me of the lady that worked at Garrett's growing up....really? you didn't notice your lips are a half inch below your lipstick line?  Anyway, I'm not sure if she was really happy we were there or not.... I finally had to tell her what kind of shopper I am....I WILL have to try on every wig in here before I buy one...sorry, should we come back another day... or is that your job???? Okay, maybe I'm a little cranky!   Teri took a picture of me with each wig on..... Maybe I should have looked at the pics before I bought one!!

Throw on a wig to throw your "hair " in a pony??

Whose nose is that?

to red to many chins?

What did I say I did??

how does blond = horse face?

Okay,  I hope I'm amusing you, because this is humiliating!



 Dolly Who???? Where???    Maybe after the surgery!





Maybe something a little different??

Perfect!!

Pink & Green

be fab!!

It was a fun day!  From there we went to lunch for margaritas...in the future, just so I know... Margaritas and chemo don't really mix!!  Maybe that explains the last two days of not being able to eat and not getting out of bed... Oh and just so the Dr knows.... Chemo is to a weight loss program... maybe she just hasn't done it.  The problem is ... you really don't care if your losing or not... you just want to feel good.    Maybe feel good and be "normal".  Normal is kinda hard with this thing sticking out just under your skin on your chest ...oh, and the whole bald thing.  That's hard to fake for normal.  I think I'm sounding a little pathetic so I'll quit writing for today....I think I'll go for a walk.  It's beautiful out.  I do want to say before I sign off, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU to all my awesome friends and family who have materialized out of the blue.  I know that in day to day life I have always thought about you and thought I would be there if you ever needed me...I didn't realize how many of you were there for me.  This whole process, however much it sucks, does make you stop and take notice of who and what is important in life.  You all are taking the bite out of my trip. I don't know how I will ever be able to give enough back to make it up to all of you.  I just want you to know you are soooo much appreciated!  Thank you, thank you!

Emergency Head Shaving Party!

The day started with with the shower water not draining...OMG... there was a baseball size glob of hair that didn't make it down the drain, which to me meant, I'm sure lots did,.... but then maybe now I got all of the loose hair and the rest will be secure.  Whatever!  If I ran my hand through it, I would come up with even more hair than yesterday.  It was one of the few days I had to leave the house,  I'm so grateful that I can stay home when I need to.  I then had to figure out what in the heck I could wear that would go with a bandanna and baseball cap.  I was going to lunch with my cousin Teri and her friends at the Enchantment Resort.  It is amazingly beautiful there....You know, before this pesky cancer thing I probably wouldn't have taken the time...and boy did I hear about it....to drive 1 1/2 hrs to just go to lunch then turn around and drive back.  It was sssoooo worth it. Okay, wait, back up,  I've driven to Prescott (1hr drive) for a 17 second horse race got my picture taken, got back in the car and went back to work! Anyway, I had to try to keep my hair "contained". Nobody wants to have lunch with someone that would get hair in their meal!  I was shedding like an Alaskan Malamute in Arizona.   I was afraid I was going to take my bandanna off and all of my hair would be in it... scary!  I actually looked, then I called for the emergency head shaving party.  I had decided that I wanted "my kids" to cut my hair for me.  I thought it would be better for them so they just didn't show up and I was bald, AND they are incredibly fun to have around! I had talked about it with their real mom, Andi, and it was the plan.  I called Andi.  This can't wait till next week, there might not be any hair left by then.  They were coming at 7:00pm.  That, in itself, was no small feat.  We're talking three very active girls. Their schedules are packed; between homework, cross fit, cheer, singing, softball, Greek dance, friends and, oh, just being kids they have 0 time.  They were rounded up and all at my house at 7:00 with Thea Georgia in tow.  Lloyd came over with clippers, and Teri showed up with a camera...great?  I ordered pizza, I didn't really know what to serve at a head shaving party ...I ate my gluten free meal...what will power!..then it was time for the main event.  Yikes! First, we had to decide who was going first... there was some discussion about who wanted to do what style...I was like a human Chrissy doll.  Do they even make those any more? I'm sure now it's some computer generated makeover!...  At first, they each took a turn cutting rather timidly, Anna was holding my hand for support.  It didn't take long for all three to be working at the same time..  I went from Rhianna to Brittney in less than an hour!  And, okay, I can be an idiot and still say some of the stupidest things on the planet.  Never say, " Be careful with those scissors, if I get cut I could die!...omg..I'm kidding, I'm kidding".  Evidently, NOT funny.  I keep forgetting that everyone doesn't know that I'm going to be okay.  Other than that, we had a blast..in a weird sort of way. Lots of love and laughter.  Thanks girls!   I can't imagine watching it come out piece by piece,  or sitting in a salon or barber shop watching someone shave it off. You did an awesome job and made me laugh!   Next official party is the Wig Hunt on Monday!